Valentines without a Valentine

So the time has come, Valentines day. A day in which many people become extremely depressed or too happy or for most people passive on the matter one way or the other. This Valentines makes up a lot of my firsts. My first Valentines in NYC for one and my first Valentines without a Valentine.

Every year since i was in Kindergarten i have had an Actual Valentine( mutual cards and love), a secret Valentine ( a letter or gift that's left anonymous) or what i call a Top Secret Valentine meaning that they're your valentine that you adore but he'll never know. I don't even have a top secret Valentine. I am simply left with me myself and I. THank GOd i have amazing friends. We had a beautiful dessert filled party with chocolate cake, puppy chow, strawberries, cream, PB cake, and lemon treats! It sure takes a lot of sugar to fill the void of an absent Valentine. ..

So let's remember From the Beg.

Kg: Alexander Patman

1st: Dane DeForest

2nd: Dane Deforest

3rd:Dane DeForest

4th: Brian Stubbs

5th: Taylor Rolfe

6th: Eric Mueller, Brent Gibeaut

7th: Brent Gibeaut, Dane DeForest(see a theme)

8th: Cash Minner/Tommy Becker

9th:Cash Minner, Johnathon Gonzales

10th: Ian Littleworth

11th:Ian Littleworth

12th: Matt Keever

fresh: "Tobin Mcguire"

soph: Michael Zobel

Junior: ____________

How strange. No crush, no heartache, no love, no secret love, no one at all. And yet, i'm not wishing i had a boyfriend but there is this deep longing for my soul mate. Yes i'm that girl who believes in soul mates. One man created perfect in my eyes and I in his. As i get older and my heart grows bigger, the void that my husband will one day fill expands twice as much. I ache yet am equally excited to meet him. It's so odd to know he's alive, breathing right now, somewhere on earth. Maybe he has a Valentine this year, or maybe he's missing me to? But there will come a time when i will be married and be able to look back and remember my first year without a Valentine and find out what my husband was doing. And ill have a permanent Valentine till death do us part. So this year can be a celebration of waiting for true love! Because next time i fall in Love i hope it's my last forever and ever.